As I scribble on a piece of scrap paper, I am riding down the road trying to beat the new deadline for the magazine. I am riding, not driving and although I have written while driving if a thought struck me, I don’t suggest it. The original deadline was ten days ago, but my computer crashed and it was the only one that held the contents. I know, risky! But thank God that my husband is a computer whiz . If you are holding this magazine in your hand, I guess things worked out after all. It is 8:30 on a Thursday night and we are headed to the grocery store. God has truly blessed me in the last two years since I gave my life to him on February 8, 2004. The changes in my home and family are so amazing that I can barely believe it. Today, I taught my Kindergarten class, then went on visitation, and then back home to get dinner ready and sit down to meet the magazine deadline, before going to the grocery store. It amazes me that that the feeling of being busy and being blessed go hand in hand. I see so many women who do so much more that I ever dream of doing and I wonder how they get it all done. Then I realize that they have the same father that I do, and He makes it all possible! It is all done by His grace and plan! If you have ever felt useless and worthless like I did most of my life, or if you have ever longed to do something good with your life, ask God to take over, come into your heart and save you, and He will give you purpose. If you seriously pray for God to use you in any way and for any purpose that He chooses, then do what He asks of you, He will fill your life to overflowing with blessings. He will use you in ways that you never imagined, to do things that you never thought that you could and He will not give you anything that you can’t handle. Plus, He will give you the secret desires of your heart!! Like, not only writing in a magazine, but being the Creative Director of one and loving the ladies that you work with. Or, sending you to teach Kindergarten and blessing you with the love and adoration of little children who think that you are wonderful even when you know that you aren’t half as wonderful as they are. Or, having a Church family who loves you even when you know that you don’t deserve it. Or, most importantly, blessing you with a home instead of just a house with a family that counts on you and loves you even when you get so busy being Wonder Woman that they get put on the back burner.
If you are anything like me, there are still days that you feel like a failure. Days when you feel like you will lose your mind if you have to add one more thing to your “to do” list. When Wonder Woman takes off the cape, and the smile is gone and the pressure is on. When Wonder Woman’s wig is slung to the side because her head is spinning and her family is tired of hearing how many wonders that she is working for other people. When all that they want is to tell you about their day and love on you and tell you how wonderful that they think that you are. Maybe, to tell you that you are the best mommy in the world, even though you know that there are many more worthy mommies in the world. Or, to tell you that you are the most beautiful wife even though you feel nothing of the sort. Or, to tell you that you are a great daughter and just spend a minute or two chatting, but you are always just so busy. That is when you need to stop and pray.
Maybe you feel like someone has mistaken you for Wonder Woman and you are pretty sure that they have you mistaken for someone else. But you REALLY want to do all that God has given you because you know in your heart how much time that you wasted, before you started serving Him. All you want to do is make up for the wasted time. So, you talk to Him and He loves on you. It makes it all worth it and He helps you not to put so much pressure on yourself. He reminds you that that family of yours was picked by Him, just for you and that they deserve more of Wonder Woman’s time than anyone outside of your phone booth does (I mean, home). Actually, the phone booth was another super hero and actually, I just realized that I, am only a woman and that the wonder of it all is, Him.
~ Stormi L. Willis (written sometime in 2005-2006)
